by Olivia Greyson from THE COOKIE CUTTER SHOP MYSTERIES, by Virginia Lowell.
Do you ever wonder what your life would be like if you’d made different choices, by which I mean smarter choices, back when you weren’t old enough to know any better? Not that I’m complaining, mind you. I’m back home with family and friends in Chatterley Heights. I own my dream business, The Gingerbread House, and I work with my best friend since age ten, Maddie. What’s not to be happy about? It’s just that now and then I think about what might have been.
My marriage fell apart before I moved back home. I’m over that now, especially since I met Del Jenkins, the town’s sheriff. The divorce wasn’t exactly amicable, but it was necessary. We were too different. I wanted children; Ryan didn’t. He was a workaholic surgeon, while I wanted at least some occasional togetherness. I was rather fond of monogamy; he found it restrictive. Need I continue? Oh yeah, I love cookies, and Ryan was a health nut. Probably still is.
Why am I dwelling on this? I think it’s because Maddie just married the love of her life, Lucas. He owns the Heights Hardware, right next door to The Gingerbread House. I’ve never seen Maddie so happy. Lucas is a good guy, who shares her dreams. Also, he can fix plumbing, so he’s practically perfect.
Del has been out of town, and I’m not sure when he’s getting back. I’m not clear about what’s going on at his end. Apparently, his ex-wife is in danger. Del is a kind and supportive guy. That’s why he is helping his ex-wife through this crisis. I’m not entirely happy about that. But I’m sure he’ll be back soon. I hope.
So I’m trying to kick myself into a more positive mood. I baked a batch of cookies with two of my favorite flavors, lemon and lime. Then I decorated them with royal icing in my favorite colors, teal and purple. Then I ate six in a row. There’s nothing like a sugar high to lift my mood, at least temporarily. After that wore off, I took my little Yorkshire terrier, Spunky, on a run, which got the endorphins going for a while. Now I’m writing down everything I’m grateful for in my life: friends, my family (even my brother, Jason), my sweet Spunky, my business, Del (wherever he is)… and yes, decorated cookies.
Do you have any other ideas for me? How do you handle those moments when life seems flat, and you wonder if you’ll have to let go of a dream or two?
Virginia is finishing Livie and Maddie’s next COOKIE CUTTER SHOP mystery, which she promises will involve cookies, lots of cookies… and murder. Stay tuned for updates! Meanwhile, she hopes you will visit her at www.virginialowell.com