I’m so freaked out!

I can barely breathe.  I’m going to be a mother!  That’s right.  MEEEE!!!!

I told Lucky about it in A Clue in the Stew, well, she guessed anyway, but I was so scared, I wasn’t able to even talk about it. 

I just never really thought it would happen.  It’s not like we, me and my husband (and I still can’t get used to saying the word ‘husband’) didn’t want a family.  We did, we really did.  I just never imagined how the news would hit me.  

I’m just trying to get my head around it all.  The responsibility!  The stuff we’ll have to buy!  The sleepless nights everyone’s always told me about.  I used to laugh when people talked about it.  I’d think, well, it’s what you wanted wasn’t it?  So what are you complaining about?  Now here I am.  In the hot seat myself!  My truly single, alone in the world state, has vanished.  Well, Sage and I got married, that’s true, so I can’t claim I was alone, but bringing a child into the world is totally different, isn’t it?

Then there’s the baby name issue.  And by the way, I do NOT want to know if we’re having a girl or a boy.  It doesn’t matter to me.  I know we’ll love that little baby like crazy.  I think Sage is hoping for a girl, but me, it doesn’t matter, as long as that little tyke is healthy and happy and has all its fingers and toes.  I worry about stuff like that a lot. 

Oh, yeah, baby names.  If it’s a girl, I want to name her Letitia, after my best friend Lucky.  But she said if I stuck a little girl with that old fashioned name, she’d hit me over the head with a frying pan.  There’s one thing Sage and I agree on, if it’s a boy, we’ll name him after Sage’s brother, René.  I think that would be really neat, plus it’s a cool name. 

So, girl names . . . what should I pick?  I want to choose a name that no one else is using in this generation.  But it’s so hard.  Names seem to blow on the wind and capture everyone’s imagination at the same time.  I’m thinking Rebecca or Ruth or Naomi.  I just love Biblical names!  Sage doesn’t though.  He likes pretty feminine names like Juliette or Elizabeth or Laura. 

I don’t know what to do!  HELP!  Help me pick a name! 

You can read more about this latest chapter in my life in A Clue in the Stew.  (PS: My stomach wasn't really very settled then!)  

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